September 5, 2008
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Me as an Audience Extra
The last year has been one of the most difficult years of my life.
While I cannot share much of what has happened, the good news is that I
am still going. Sometimes I’m not sure how.At the end of May my
last contract position ended and since then I have been officially
unemployed, a disempowering experience to say the least.Anyhow, for a new experience last Friday I was an ‘audience extra’ at Market Call Tonight on BNN.
Here’s a clip of me asking a question, something I make myself do
whenever I attend a seminar. Okay, I don’t know a lot about the stock
market, but I realized that I know more than I thought I did.By
all means watch the whole show, Ross Healy’s viewpoints are
interesting. If you want to see yours truly, a little nervous (could
have done with some of those beta blockers, laughs) go to 7:25 on this clip (after the ads) for about 2 minutes to hear his full answer.
Comments (4)
Brenda, I have missed you & all your artistry! Congrats on attending such an event & having the guts to ask questions! I would just sit there, all mealy-mouthed.
I had a chance to speak to a college class yesterday, they are intrested in volunteering with the refugee unit i work for, and I was amazied when asked questions how I actually had answers. I think most knowelege is receptive, and only when asked a direct question do we understand how much we could express about what we know. Feelings on the other hand, we can comunicate and share with so openly. I think humans are a more epathic species then indavidualisic socities feel compfortable to admit. I also pray and hope your job situation changes soon. Take care, dawn
“While I cannot share much of what has happened,…”
I struggle with this Brenda. I feel the urge to write honestly but I am constrained by the thought of having people who know me in a certain light read my rants and change their opinion of me. That is not a very brave on my part but I work on it. There is still much more suppressed than revealed in my posted writing.
Peace
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With me, much of the difficulties revolve around those I love, and out of respect for them I cannot speak. Lately I haven’t been able to create metaphors to express without clearly delineating either. It’s a difficult call, certainly. I think your openess is incredibly beautiful and I feel honoured to read you revealing your life. Your relationship with your woman is stunning, and the correspondence is witty, loving, sexy, moving. This is how writing should be, surely. And I would, I would, but it’s not just me and I can’t potentially hurt anyone else by writing publicly about them (or in protected posts – Xanga owns the rights to those too) and their issues. Your posted writing is so very honest, though I understand you, too, most likely draw clear borders around whom and what you write about. We both can go in the direction of what my Butoh teacher said, not expressing but exposing emotion. It’s fearful, but it’s all we have. Who we are.